So...blogging is a completely new thing for me! But as someone wise once said "In order to face your fears try one new every day." I guess this is my new thing.
I've realized lately that one of the only reasons I ever really smile anymore is to watch someone else's face light up. There's just something about watching someone go from sad to happy all within 1 minute. And I guess one of the reasons I watch their faces light up is because I want to see if maybe their joyful mood will somehow come out into me...does that even make sense?
The funny thing anout people is that we only believe what we want to believe...or we only want to see what we think we see. For me, having people see what I want them to see isn't hard...because for some strange reason all I have to do is paste a smile on my face and anyone will believe I'm ok. But when someone truly sees you and doesn't just see the face you put on every day shouldn't that mean something? There are so many questions that I'm trying to find the answers to lately. And the basic one is what do I do when someone does see the real me...?
